Poorly lungs

Feeling paper thin, weak and tired. My stomach twists and turns. Every fibre of my body feels exhausted, my limbs have become heavy. I curl up, I close my eyes, hoping when I open them again the sickness will be gone and the room will have stopped spinning. I don't remember Meropenum and tobramycn making me feel like this before?

I started IV's for my chest infection, My lungs don't feel any better, constantly coughing, I go from coughing up loads to unable to cough up anything, not because its not there but just because I can't, I can't move the flem, I can't feel where it is, The still foreign feeling of these lungs are there, Its strange as we seem to work so well together, but as soon as they are not well, I feel so un used to them.

Its not getting any better, the sickness, the infection, my body feels so weak, all energy sources feel depleted, despite eating lots the last few days. I cannot eat today, I cannot think of food, just the thought brings my stomach into twists and turns, begging me not to lay food on top of it.

Pain, there are pains, pains in the bottom of my lungs, scar tissue in the lining of my lungs from the operation that's been irritated by the infection, as I take a breath in the sharp knife intrudes deeper.

Reading this you would think it was a pre transplant blog, but its not. I hate feeling like this, I hate writing about it, complaining about it, but well, I still get ill, I just hope this won't last much longer and I will be back to enjoying my life. But for now, I'm going to curl up and watch the Olympics, Inspiration for when I feel better.