Pinnacle

Pinnacle
11 days and counting to the ball, only 8 days to my one year transplant anniversary. I believe tomorrow would have been the day I was air lifted to harefield (days blurred a bit). It feels like everything I have been working toward for he last year has reached its pinnacle. I was working toward health, fitness, healthy mind and soul. Have I achieved this. YES. I am on my way to becoming the person I vision my self as. I feel healthy I feel fit. I feel like I have used this last year well, to discover me and my new body, to get answers about things that otherwise would have followed me forever. When I woke up from transplant, I didn't set myself these goals, I just hoped to make it through a day at a time, I never believed I could have done this. That I could survive this horrendous thing and still come out whole, well I didn't, I'm not ashamed to say it I got shattered into tiny pieces, my mind felt like it was fragmented and I didn't know who I was. When I thought I was back together this whole recovery threw other mental obstacles in my way, But now I guess I feel stronger than I ever could.

THE BALL
Well, Its ball central here! oh dear didn't mean the innuendo. I have been going crazy the last week, organising, finalising, selling I have to say this is actually the bit I enjoy right now, everything coming together, pieces are falling into place. If things were going wrong I would be a sleepless mess. But its not. I'm getting there!! I can't wait now, but at the same time I'm still trying to sell tickets, so I want time to slow down so I can sell more. I have until Monday to get my final numbers in, I would just like to sell 10more tickets then ill be happy. 10 more I can do it I'm sure.