Hurtful Hateful People

The yesteday I had a rather nasty comment on my group in facebook. The person implied that I was after fame and getting money for my charity. They said that I was now rubbing my health and happiness in other peoples faces, who weren't going through a good time, that they had even felt sorry for me when I was ill, but implied that now I wasn't ill they weren't interested and felt sorry for my donors family as there has been no mention of them. The person subsequently deleted there self from my page after numerous others responded to the comment. I personally sat back and just thought about it. The comment upset me, not because any of it was true but because someone had set out to be hurtful and unkind, that this person obviously only knows the surface story and has not taken any time into trying to know or understand me.

I'm not going to lie, the attention I have had from the press has been very positive and kind and I have enjoyed that in a sense. Would I go through everything iv gone through just for the attention, certainly not, but it has given me a greater perspective over life and a greater understanding of other peoples misfortunes and suffering, which is why the comment on me rubbing it in peoples faces is so hurtful. The reason I share now is to show people just how good transplant can be, that there is hope after end stage CF or other terminal diseases requiring transplant as the only option. I want people waiting on the list to not lose hope, to hold on and fight till the very end because even then there is a tiny ray of hope that things will turn out good as they did with me. I also want to show people who ain't on the donor register that if they become donor that in the horrific circumstances of there death that perhaps they can help save a life and what a difference that can make.

The comment that 'now I'm asking for money for my charity' well to begin with its not my charity, I'm raising money for various charities that have helped save my life and make it better, I'm doing this because i want them to carry on  delivering the first class help they have provided and carry on saving other peoples lives, I don't want anyone else to suffer the way I did. I don't see how wanting to help people is a bad thing.

They say it as if I'm receiving money out of the things I do, I'm not. I didn't receive any money for the documentary, I receive no money from the news papers, the magazines sometimes contribute money, I have donated these funds to charities in the past and other times it has covered costs for doing them.

The charity ball, so far if anything has cost me personally, I will take my own money out of the funds but otherwise all I receive is the knowledge that some how in some way I might be changing the world for a better place. Is that a bad thing?

The comment that implies this person found it more enjoyable when i was ill, to me, shows that they are obviously in a lot of emotional pain themselves, for that, I feel sorry for them, that they seem to enjoy other peoples pain as a way of feeling better, the signs of a true bully.

Lastly, my Donor, all I can say on this is I feel disgusted that they have even mentioned my donor, It is none of any ones business about my donor. They have no right to even mention them, they do not know how i feel about them, or what I do each day to honour them, there are things in my life that even to me are personal. This is one of them. All I can say if thank you every day and believe me I Do. I have discussed various feelings in this blog before about them, I do not wish to re iterate them. I'm still grieving for them to.

So I felt compelled to write this blog, perhaps the best thing would be to ignore this ignorant and unintelligible person, to not feed the troll so to speak, but I feel affected by what people say and its not so easy to rise above it. Human emotions are a difficult thing and yes I am full of them.

Ill leave you with a few articals about me, one i didn't know was going to be printed and another magazine one. Express and Echo

Pick me up

Lastly I would like to Invite you all to the '2nd Chance Ball' named after this blog.

Please feel free to email me for tickets or enquires, my email is on the poster above.

Also a big thank you to the generous people who have sponsored me so far, http://uk.virginmoneygiving.com/team/kirstiesbigbreathbikeride 

Im doing a bake sale Sunday and Tuesday to run along side LLTGL Valentines day bake sale, I will blog on how they go.

Thanks for reading.