My rememberance note to debs x

11 year since your gone, I can still see you face in my mind perfectly. The way you smiled and the whole room smiled with you. I was only 10 and you just 16, I looked up to you, my inspiration in life. Everything I do is because you inspired me. When my mum told me you were going to go on the lung transplant list I knew it was sirious stuff. I cryed and cryed into my mums arms. devistated that things had got that bad. WHen you recieved that call i didn't know what to think. But knowing that you left us on the 27th of january 2001 My heart broke, it never truely recovered I can tell you that. I just sat there at first and all i would think was while i went swimming that morning with my firends you died.

I wonder what would have happend had your transplant had worked, what would you be doing now, artist, poetry writer, novelist maybe. You had a beautiful way of stringing those words together. I can't help think If you were still alive you would be 27, my husbands 27 you know.

The woodrow holiday sites been adding lots of pictures of you, I love the ones of you smilling and running around admitidly there are few. I hope your running around breathing easy now.

You know im so glad you were there for me when i was on ecmo. I know you were spurring me on and you got me through cos id had enough. But you knew that anyway.

I don't know what else to say debs, I wish you would have been here thats all, I know you woud have guided me through all this, prepared me, when I was little prepared.

Love always, thank you for making such an impact of my life. A shining star in the blackest of nights.

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