Sunday 18 August 2013

Dreaming wire free


I'm still recovering well, it seems like things are all heading in the right direction apart from a old annoying problem cropping up. My stomach does many magical painful things one of which is switching it's self off. Last night was the second time it's done this in this recovery. I was withering in pain and actually got to the point where I just though god this is never ending, the itu anethatist was brought down and then dosed me up on morphine until I passed out. A happy outcome. It got to the point where even my nurse didn't know what to do and all she could do was hold my hand and reassure me I was going to be ok.

Pain, pain is such a provocateur of emotions, how it can make you feel like your world is crashing down in seconds and anyone who has the power to take it away is simply a hero. I felt I truly didn't know how to keep going last night, surely I wouldn't keel over from the pain but I didn't physically know how I could handle any more.

I continue to dream of life wire free, house hunting, doing my sports therapy massage course, teaching pole, getting fit and having dinner with my hubby.

I can't wait to be curled up in our new house when we buy this autumn, surrounded by friends, family and of course Kia. It seems so idyllic and small but so tangible and perfect.

I'm hoping to be leaving hospital this week for a family wedding, whether that's full discharge or weekend leave we will see. I'm currently down to two chest drains and one neck line. I long for a full bath or shower.


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15 comments:

  1. Oh, Kirstie. This is just lovely. <3 I hope you get your dream as soon as possible. It's so amazing for you to get this new chance. xxx

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  2. You'll get there Kirsty....its only 8 days !!!!!
    You still have work to do on this earth, just be patient and give your body time to heal. There is a whole life out there waiting for you to return

    xxxxxxxxx

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  3. Kirsten I love that you are expecting to get home so soon. Your courage shines through. An inspiration to us all. Here's to lots of new names on the donor register.

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  4. Bodies - our sorrow and our joy. I am grateful for the wisdom you share with us. All good thoughts from me to you during your recovery.

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  5. The world of CFer's are behind you Kirstie. Your dreams are not dreams, because they will happen! Take care there.

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  6. I hope u are recovering best u can even with the small hiccups ur having lets hope this passes for u very soon so you can go home and continue to enjoying what u love doing the most u are truly an inspiration to all of us xx big hugs from Australia to u Kirstie thanks for keeping us updated on ur progress

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  7. Hello Kirstie,
    I work in the BBC's repeats unit and as a courtesy just wanted to let you know that the episode of "Russell Howard's Good News" that you featured in is due to be on again on BBC3 on September 2nd at 10pm. If this raises any issues please would you email me - simon.goretzki@bbc.co.uk.
    Thanks very much and best wishes, Simon

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  8. Thinking of you, hope you are doing well, I keep checking for an update :)

    -cyster

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  9. Kirstie,
    Only recently saw your story on tv repeated prog, and its an amazingly moving story of your courage and your pain.
    You are an amazing and inspiring woman.

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  10. I heard your story for the first time on Russel Howard tonight. I just want to say that your an amazing person! Beautiful inside and out, I hope your recovery is a rapid one, lungs hurry up and adjust! Your needed for some pole swinging! Hope u get a bubbly bath soon! Cheryl xxx

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  11. Heard about your story on Russell Howards good news. Amazing that you are remaining positive hope everything gets better. You are able to live your life normally.

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  12. Amy updates? How are you today?

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  13. Any updates? How's it going!! No news is good news!??

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  14. I too have just seen the Russell Howard Show and Googled you not knowing what I would find. Chuffed to see this and to read your blog and wish you all the very best

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